It Was The Hardest Breakup That Never Really Happened
By: Lisa M. Hayes – Confluence Daily is your daily news source for women in the know.
He said the most beautiful things and her heart wanted to believe them.
He looked in her eyes and told her she was precious. He promised her the moon in a Tiffany colored box with a bow on top, and she cleared a space for it in her living room because she wanted to think he would deliver.
He made her feel seen, so seen she felt naked in his presence, even when she was fully clothed.
He said all the right things at all the right times except for the times he didn’t show up, wasn’t there, didn’t come around and didn’t say anything.
It was easy to forgive him. It was easy to ignore the all the signs he wasn’t really hers. She made excuses. She made up stories she hoped were true. It was impossible to entertain the thought that he could be or should be accountable his absences, or for the piece of her heart he knowingly took from her.
She didn’t want to ask for too much too soon.
She didn’t want to scare him off.
She didn’t want to be too bold, or too pushy, or too demanding, or too needy.
She didn’t want him to feel casual about her, but she acted casual, cool and restrained even when she was freezing in the shadow of his absence, hoping she’d feel the warmth of his gaze again soon.
She made being with him more important than being able to look in the mirror. She told everyone else she was okay in the space between being alone and truly being with someone. She let him come and go. She waited for his calls. She canceled plans with friends to sit at home alone because she just knew he’d appear and when he didn’t, she blamed herself not him.
He never really left her. He just never came back.
It didn’t exactly end because it never really began.
It was the hardest breakup that never happened.
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Lisa is an LOA Relationship Coach. She helps clients leverage Law of Attraction to get the relationships they dream about and build the lives they want. Lisa is the author of the newly released hit book, Score Your Soulmate and How to Escape from Relationship Hell and The Passion Plan.
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